I apologize

Sorry guys, I know its been quite a while since I've even attempted to write on my American Dreaming... All I can say for myself is that I've been busy. Wait, It's totally not a good excuse but it's the truth. There's been a lot going on and I'll try to explain what I can. sooo, I left for New York straight after my marketing class on December 20th. I had a 8:50pm flight and OF COURSE I missed it! The airport was insane but I managed to get on a standby flight at around 12am while running past Bill Murray. Any who! I've been here in NY since the morning of December 21st and I haven't really had any time to breathe yet. Babe picked me up from the airport and I went to my mother's house shortly after bearing gifts from FIDM. I didn't really know the extent of how much I missed everyone until I was there talking, laughing, and joking. My little brothers seemed to have grown taller and simply handsome. My niece was beautiful as always and hugged me until I turned blue. When I saw both of my sisters it was as if I hadn't left at all.. we still have that bond which will hold us together until the end of time. My mom, who greeted me at the door treated me as if I were a child coming home from summer camp; she feed me, covered me in the bed when I decided to take a nap, and asked many questions. All in all, I loved every minute of it. Later on that afternoon babe came over to take part in the "coming home" festivities, which included drinking tons of wine! whew! what a first day!

with love,


*imsuchadoll*

The day is over

Wooohooo! I loveee that I don’t go to real school lol. We took our technology for business application's final "as a class" today! ::Haha:: My teacher is so sweet. Any who! I'm looking forward to tomorrow. It will mark my official day before I leave for LA lol but I have so much to get accomplished!

1. Go to the bank and finally deposit my check
2. Get someone to fill out a very important form for me at school
3. Finish up my PowerPoint presentation due on Thursday
4. Study for my Marketing & Brand Development final
5. Re-pack, because I have wayyy too many things in my bag now!
6. Remember to pack up my luggage in my roommate’s car tomorrow night, because I’m leaving straight to the airport from class!
7. Tidy up my room

Annndddd I guess that’s it, I can’t remember what else! This has pretty much put me in a happy state. I'm excited to see everyone.

Well, the roof's computer lab is about to close soooo I’ll return tomorrow with updates!

With love,


*imsuchadoll*

It's raining

Today seems to be all over the place. I can't find my English paper, I have homework to complete before my 3:00 class, and I still need funds! Yet something inside of me decided to take the extra time this morning to get all dolled up. I guess it'll help make me feel better, who knows! The days seem to get slower, and the nights... well, longer. I can't sleep and I wake up extremely tired even though I'm not working all those strenuous hours anymore.

I'm starting to think that for the first time in three months, I'm officially homesick.

With love,


*imsuchadoll*

The outcome

Well, I managed to get through my final with a positive upside. Watev, I'm seriously just over it all. I wish I could take my mind off the millions of uncanny thoughts running wild in my head, but it just won’t happen. There’s too much going on right now.

I saw my student advisor today and the outcome? She can’t help me. I just want to lie down, eat real Chinese food from the corners of the Bronx, and silently cry. I want to call mom and scream my troubles, but its 2:00am in New York. These are the things I hate. I guess at this point, I want to get on my flight and leave LA behind, so I won’t have to think about it anymore.

I want things to be okay.

With love,


*imsuchadoll*

Ugh.. no, wait.. Woohoo!

I woke up and I have somewhat of a BLAH day ahead of me. I have to go to school to find out about financial clearance for the winter quarter - Anything that goes on with that can’t be good... I have no money, soooo I’m pretty much [[fucked]] because they aren’t going to allow me to start when I get back from my break. Watev, I try not to think about it so much, I have no idea what I'm going to do. After that I have to take my final, and I'm also pretty much [[fucked]] because I have to take it four days early because I won’t be here on Friday ugh. Umm, when I’m finished with that I'm most likely going to run to Ralphs to get some kind of food! I didn’t want to go grocery shopping because I'm leaving, but I HAVE NOTHING IN MY FRIDGE!

The only thing that seems to be keeping me sane is the phone call I received from babe this afternoon, regarding life altering news! I'm exceptionally happy for him and I can’t wait to get home to celebrate! Let me be the first to say Congratulations! Mwah babe!

The rest of my day… Who knows? I'll check in later on with the "what’s" of it all.

With love,


*imsuchadoll*

Checking in!

This past weekend has concluded to be extremely relaxing. I haven’t been able to get up to the roof to post lately, so I apologize. Hmm, where do I start? I played a game of scrabble on Friday night and it turned out to be a dirty one as you can see from the picture lol... and yes, that’s my grey boot! Umm, after scrabble we went to Mel's diner in Hollywood. I opted for a BLT with avocado slices and tons of ketchup- LOVED ITTT. Any who! It was an amazing night



Saturday and Sunday can be summed up as being selfish "ME" time. I talked to babe alll day, alll night, and stuffed myself with food, snacks, and of course fruit! I tried to study for my early History of Costume final I have to take on Monday. It’s not exactly working out for me. I'm just checking in to let the world know that I'm okay ::haha:: So toddles, and I will surely return in the morning.

With love,


*imsuchadoll*

Am I that much of a bad person?

Hmm well my day started tired! I didn't quite finish my History of Costume quiz last night as I was wrapped up in eating tons of grapes and tangerines. I asked babe to wake me up early because I had some things to do. Okay, so lets rewind a little: I have my flight home for the holidays and I KNOW my job isn't going to allow me the two weeks off, so I suppose I'm going to have to quit. Next week is going to be extremely stressful because of finals so I devised a plan ::haha:: I'm pretty much exhausted from the extreme hours Armani Exchange are extending to me, especially last Sundays 8pm to 5am schedule! I'm listed to work on Saturday 5-9 (9-12), but I sooooo don't want to go in. having babe wake me up early, assuring that I'll be able to go to the mall before class at 3. I wanted to pick up my check so I wouldn't have to face anyone now that I decided to quit a week early. BUUUTTT, the second reason for my visit to AX was.... (so I could take full advantage of my discount before I'm no longer an employee) THERE, I SAID IT! I'm sooo ashamed but it totally makes sense! I had some extra money.. please tell me, am I that much of a bad person?

I managed to finish my quiz on the bus ride back downtown to school. I grabbed some fries from McDonald's and went to class. I had an awesome time reviewing for the final until 6, when class was over. Of course I talked to babe while walking home. As I entered my building I smiled at the thought of living in a beautiful high-rise across the street from corporate offices. I cant say the same for entering my apartment.. OF COURSE its a total mess because my roommates are real "into" this thing where they are comfortable living with tons of [[shit]] all over the place. Okay maybe I can paint the picture, (fashion design students) fabric, papers, scissors, pencils, markers, plates, cups, bags, jackets, pillows, and tiny pieces of all of the above in multiple colors torn around popping out from the light grey carpet we have. Yes, there is [[shit]] EVERYWHERE, lets not speak of the kitchen! Oh yeah and with the thought of a Xmas party thrown by them tonight arises, am I not supposed to feel some kind of way? When the ONLY time they decide to clean is when they want to throw a "cool" party, IF they even DECIDE ON CLEANING THAT PARTICULAR NIGHT. While I'm overly frustrated and on the roof typing away, I receive a text message stating something along the lines of, "what day do u wanna do dishes, we're making a schedule" - oh yeah, there's tons of [[shit]] lying around everywhere and NOW they care! When I decided from the day I moved in that it is not my responsibility to clean up after no one, I stuck by it. I am exceedingly considerate of others. When I make my meals I eat, pack away the left overs and clean up after myself – pretty standard procedure. So why should I have to clean (putting dishes in the dishwasher and allowing the rest of the kitchen including counter space, stove, food in the [[effin]] sink and a stacked up garbage) up after adults? If anyone knows me, they already know the outcome of this situation, and with that being said…

Please just tell me, am I that much of a bad person?

With love,



*imsuchadoll*

I can smile

I finally finished up my project! The fact that I was an hour and a half late to class doesn't mean a thing ::haha:: Next week I'll have to make an oral presentation, which I am totally not looking forward to!

OMG so, fantastic news! I just got home from school and I'm in my room peeling a tangerine chatting away with babe when... Mom calls on the other line. So I bid babe a good night, after all it IS a 3 hour time difference (12am in NY). After that mom informs me that while I was at school doing tonssss of stressing, she booked me a flight! oh how I adore my mom sooooo much. No need for worries any longer, I'll be home next Friday. I soo cant wait to just be around the family, that's what Christmas is all about ::love u mom::

Oh yeah, so before that happened, I was waiting for my school shuttle - because I'm way too lazy to walk the three blocks home ::haha:: No wait, dont judge me just yet, FIDM provides a free shuttle for late classes that will take you within like 3 miles or something, and I live downtown! its dark, cold, and hobos are everywhere! by the way, I love how I now say "hobo" instead of homeless people.. lol that's what everyone in LA refer to them as. Any who! back to my wait for the shuttle.. So I've been craving fruit a lot lately sooo.. I head over to Ralph's (supermarket) since its on the next block and rack up on tangerines, pears, mango's, and grapes! yummmmm As I was walking back, the shuttle arrived and now I'm home. I feel super energetic and excitement is pouring out of me because I'm so hyped about my flight home! I spoke to mom for about an hour and a half, you know, the usual and now I'm on the roof typing away.

I guess things are falling into place, and they don't seem so bad after all. Now I just have to start on that History of Costume take home quiz that's due tomorrow at 3. I'll TRY MY HARDEST to get started on that now.

Until tomorrow..

With love,

*imsuchadoll*

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I seem to have become extremely into all of this.. blogging that is. At random moments throughout my day, night, conversations and so on, I urge to share. Hmm, is this really what the blogging world is like? Constant torture to my fingers, to update?

I'm in the annex again this morning. I have class at 3 and another one at 6. I wont be home until 9 - not really looking forward to my retail enviornment class because my teacher is a realll (whats the word).. asshole! yeah thats it. The project thats due today at 3 is the cause for my late night/early morning madness lately. I'm presenting a case study on the retail channel H&M. The ins, the outs; history, store layout, merchandise, customer profiles, sales volume, employee relations, thier mission statement/philosophy, stock price, price range, advertisements/public relations, competitors and so forth lol. It doesnt make things any easier that I had to constantly visit the store to take notes and I decided to pick the H&M thats allll the way in the Beverly Center mall (I work in the mall but so what, totally not the point). Of course I dont have a car, so its basically a 45 minute bus ride from downtown. On top of it all, meaning the extreme paper work to be inserted into a binder, I have to add tons of visuals! yeah, so thats whats been buggin me.

www.HM.com

Speaking of which I should be getting back to my work. I'll be sure to return later.

With Love,


*imsuchadoll*

I'll try again tomorrow..

A day filled with deadlines and tasks, yet nothing seemed to get accomplished. Oh how did I know? So I was on my way out of my building this afternoon: my roommate calls and it turns out that while she was on the roof, and I had left, she'd been locked out of the house ::ughh:: I hadn't walked but half of a block anyway, so I turn around and we get things situated. I walk to school while talking to mom as well as my sis about eventful things going on in New York. I get off the phone with them and my babe calls me. Now I'm standing in front of the annex, chatting away, because I must fill him in on my day so far, he's a great listener. Sooo I must have been standing outside for about a half an hour enjoying the sun filled spots which the tree's know not to block, of course because I'm there and we all know how much I despise cold weather. Any who! As I was standing there, someones car was in the middle of getting towed and I just felt so horrible. I mean, not having a car to get into as you are leaving class?? Luckily for me I live downtown, but who knows, this unknown jane doe who is the victim of parking violation wanna be cops, could live hours away! not including the money jane's going to have to shell out to pay for it! ::smh::



Okay, so who decided to skip the Gossip Girl episode this week for the new premiere of Crowned? Whats that all about? I'm totally disappointed. ANTM ended with Saleisha as the winner and Chantal going home empty handed. I actually liked both of them, they equally possessed "top model" qualities.
http://www.cwtv.com/



Conclusion: I didn't finish my projects and I have yet to find a flight home. When will I ever be wrong? Maybe tomorrows checklist might prove to be a success.

With love,


*imsuchadoll*

Lets start

Horrible night! I couldn't sleep what so ever.. so I'm trying not to think about it so much. Its a new day, with a list of things to do

• Wake up
• Call my babe
• Eat some sort of breakfast
• Head out to school (even though I don't have class today)
• Get started on a bunch of projects, that are sooo due!
• Return home
• Grab some sort of food, again
• Relax until later on
• ANTM @ 8
• Gossip Girl @ 9
• Revisit my day and where I went wrong while enjoying my evening.

So, Lets see where I'm at.. ummm I believe I'm between eating breakfast which I did like two hours ago ::haha:: I had two slices of raisin bread, lightly toasted, with a huge amount of butter warmly melting as I spread it. It was awesome! umm, nothing to drink.. As I was saying before, between that and School. I haven't quite made it there yet as I've been trampled with tons of other things that fall into my lap time after time. So it's Wednesday Dec. 12th (my day off from school and work), and I'm still looking for flights home for the holidays! ughhh! I cannot seem to find anything that fits into my schedule or budget! I have to book a flight ASAP, meaning by tonight, and I'm serious! So as I write, I am also searching with no luck. Anywho! I shall begin my Christmas list now too ::haha soooo late:: ahh I have no idea what I want, I've always been more of a giver. The Holidays seem to put me at such a great ease. Family time, laughs, food, drinks, bundling up, and enjoying it all. I HAVE TO FIND A FLIGHT HOME.

Xmas List

1. Superbad DVD
2. A new coat
3. A better job?

I guess that's all for now. I will try to update it as things come to mind.

I watched the movie what women want last night, pretty cheesy. I mean, it was cute (if u like cute) I'm more of a beautiful/handsome kinda girl. Iiiii dunno, I picked it out, sat alone in the cozy warmth of my apartment and thought it would be somewhat Okay. I didn't expect too much, but I seem to have gotten something out of it. There are a couple of parts where Mel Gibson, and Helen hunt relax and dance to "I wont dance" and "Ive got you under my skin" (and many others), and Ive taken into consideration a new genre of music; which makes me smile, want to dance, and mimic lyrics uncontrollably. ::smiles at the thought::

Okay, so I should probably be on my way to school now. Just in case you were wondering I could never possibly get work done in my apartment. It is wayyy too much of a distraction, so even on my days off, I utilize my schools facility to make things happen. (With $22,000 tuition, I BETTER) oh yeah, as funny as it may sound, I am accepting donations towards my tuition (NOT KIDDING). Payments can be made directly to my school, with my student ID number. If anyone is interested please let me know. By the way, I am totally serious. http://www.fidm.edu/

Thanks

With love,

*imsuchadoll*

The Beginning

So I'm exercising the thought of actually devoting time and patience to writing out my life. I guess with this comes organization and most importantly time! lol hey I'm in a new city (which I'll tell you more about later) and I couldn't be more free to do more of the things life has to offer at this point. I call all of this American Dreaming, what my life consists of on a daily basis. I know absolutely nothing about blogs. Further more, I don't consider myself what others may call a "great" writer. I'm here to simply.. I'm not exactly sure yet, but I'll figure it out on the way.



With love,



*imsuchadoll*