Back in California

I finally made my way back to Los Angeles... with my puppy and babe of course! Our new apartment is the cutestttttttttt thing ever! We haven't officially moved in yet, but we'll be in there by the 1st. So in the mean time i'm still in Downtown LA. The new place is in Studio City tho, which isn't too far. It's actually about 20 minutes away driving or 15 hopping on the metro (haha train). you wanna know the coolest part??! SURE YOU DO... Universal Studios/City Walk is like 3 blocks away from us! I LOVE IT!

Well, I spent my last days in New York stressing and going over a million and one things. Babe and I had a huge moving sale because we decided not to take anything with us to LA. We needed the extra money and figured we'd start over. My mom came over to help and it actually turned out to be quite a success. I put up flyer's and all! Soooo between that and ACTUALLY getting things packed up for storage, we were all pretty exhausted. We didn't get a chance to pack until about 3:30 and our flight was at 6:35am.

Our closest friends and family came over at the last minute. It wasn't planned or anything and it wasn't like we could really entertain them as we usually do. The house was a mess with documents, pictures, and miscellaneous items thrown everywhere and we still had so much to do. It showed how much our loved ones really cared though. They didn't mind the clutter and constant movement of "where's this" and "did you remember to pack that". It was Thursday night and I'm pretty positive that every single person that came through had to wake up to go to school, work, or both and no one left until around 4am. THANKS GUYS. We had a ball! drinks of course! I mean, we had to finish the alcohol before we left haha (that's totally my excuse). Any who! like I said, we had drinks, loud music, dancing, and weird shit like [[two girls, one cup]] - yeah... don't ask. But all in all I appreciate my family and friends dearly and I cant wait until they all come out here to visit. I love you Mom



[[And yes babe and I look horrible! it was 4am!]]

A BIG thanks to mom because although I moved to Cali in October and she came with me, it was for school. This time around, three months later, it has become a reality that yes I have in fact relocated to another state. 3,000 miles away in another time zone, I have decided to move my life (my puppy and babe)into a different direction NOT totally for school; but for me.. for my life... for my American Dreaming.

With love,

*imsuchadoll*

I'm sick

Sooo it's been a hectic week! I'm trying my hardest to get things packed up and situated, not to mention the fact that I AM POOR. Watev, things will work out. Everything happens for a reason and I'm content with the fact that life will work its way out on its own. I found out some extremely disturbing news Wednesday night while at my moms house. As we both broke down a cried aloud, I couldn't help but wonder why is it that when one problem arises, a whole bunch of them follow? With this bad and disturbing news I began to wonder if I should return to California so soon.. it seems as though there are people here that need my support and I want to give them my all. I'm tired of not having the money, the answer, or the time. Maybe I yearn for too much in my American dreams??

So last week I ached from an unbearable soar throat. On top of me not getting any sleep for the past two days, I woke up today feeling nauseated and just plain sick! I felt as though I had to puke but I truly didn't have to.. I don't know, it was weird, awkward, and I surely didn't need it. I couldn't leave my house so when I got enough strength to get in the shower I found myself feeling weak again. I curled up in my new robe on the couch and tried to get as much air as possible. I was scared to bits to eat anything, fearing the "puke" afterwards. When babe returned home I asked him to make me some tostones with a light coating of salt. I devoured them all! but only because I hadn't eaten since the night before and it was now 3:00pm! any who! I urged to go outside thinking the fresh air would be of great help but it started pouring raining! ugh I hate the rain.. seriously, it makes me feel icky. So I just came from outside and I can feel that I'm getting better. I was hoping that I didn't have that virus that's been going around. please pray for my recovery! BEING SICK SUCKS!

with love,

*imsuchadoll*

HAPPY NEW YEAR

HAPPY NEW YEAR FELLOW BLOGGERS ITS 2008!

I celebrated with babe of course! We went to see my mom and little brothers at around 12:30ish and she was cooking a full meal! She fed us and took tons of pictures then it was off to the REAL CELEBRATION. We hit up the Mustang Bar and Grill for their amazing Open Bar (we went last year for new years and had a blast). Afterwards we met up with some friends and partied the night away at a great upscale lounge on the upper west side. It was hugs, kisses, and drinking! What a way to bring in the NEW YEAR! I wish you all the best in your future '08 dreams.


Once again, I'm sorry I haven't had my usual time to check in and explain my day to day activities. New York seems so lively and I really don't want to leave so soon. But its back to Cali, the REAL world.. where mom's no longer cooking me dinner, I cant sleep late, or see my family at the drop of a $6 or $7 cab ride. BY THE WAY, I totally appreciate all NY has to offer with the low prices and super steals!


Any who! I wont be returning back to LA alone. I'm finally taking my puppy which I'm in the process of handling now. Ugh so much work and money! ANDDDDDD.... babe is returning with me! woohoooo yes! lol haha I'm pretty excited cuz he totally loved LA when he came to visit for the thanksgiving holiday. It's sooo US. But Umm, it'll be good. It's a new year and new expectations shall be held. We're only getting older, live life now.

AND AS I ALWAYS SAY.. "Believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. if it changes your life, let it!"


With love,


*imsuchadoll*

I apologize

Sorry guys, I know its been quite a while since I've even attempted to write on my American Dreaming... All I can say for myself is that I've been busy. Wait, It's totally not a good excuse but it's the truth. There's been a lot going on and I'll try to explain what I can. sooo, I left for New York straight after my marketing class on December 20th. I had a 8:50pm flight and OF COURSE I missed it! The airport was insane but I managed to get on a standby flight at around 12am while running past Bill Murray. Any who! I've been here in NY since the morning of December 21st and I haven't really had any time to breathe yet. Babe picked me up from the airport and I went to my mother's house shortly after bearing gifts from FIDM. I didn't really know the extent of how much I missed everyone until I was there talking, laughing, and joking. My little brothers seemed to have grown taller and simply handsome. My niece was beautiful as always and hugged me until I turned blue. When I saw both of my sisters it was as if I hadn't left at all.. we still have that bond which will hold us together until the end of time. My mom, who greeted me at the door treated me as if I were a child coming home from summer camp; she feed me, covered me in the bed when I decided to take a nap, and asked many questions. All in all, I loved every minute of it. Later on that afternoon babe came over to take part in the "coming home" festivities, which included drinking tons of wine! whew! what a first day!

with love,


*imsuchadoll*

The day is over

Wooohooo! I loveee that I don’t go to real school lol. We took our technology for business application's final "as a class" today! ::Haha:: My teacher is so sweet. Any who! I'm looking forward to tomorrow. It will mark my official day before I leave for LA lol but I have so much to get accomplished!

1. Go to the bank and finally deposit my check
2. Get someone to fill out a very important form for me at school
3. Finish up my PowerPoint presentation due on Thursday
4. Study for my Marketing & Brand Development final
5. Re-pack, because I have wayyy too many things in my bag now!
6. Remember to pack up my luggage in my roommate’s car tomorrow night, because I’m leaving straight to the airport from class!
7. Tidy up my room

Annndddd I guess that’s it, I can’t remember what else! This has pretty much put me in a happy state. I'm excited to see everyone.

Well, the roof's computer lab is about to close soooo I’ll return tomorrow with updates!

With love,


*imsuchadoll*

It's raining

Today seems to be all over the place. I can't find my English paper, I have homework to complete before my 3:00 class, and I still need funds! Yet something inside of me decided to take the extra time this morning to get all dolled up. I guess it'll help make me feel better, who knows! The days seem to get slower, and the nights... well, longer. I can't sleep and I wake up extremely tired even though I'm not working all those strenuous hours anymore.

I'm starting to think that for the first time in three months, I'm officially homesick.

With love,


*imsuchadoll*

The outcome

Well, I managed to get through my final with a positive upside. Watev, I'm seriously just over it all. I wish I could take my mind off the millions of uncanny thoughts running wild in my head, but it just won’t happen. There’s too much going on right now.

I saw my student advisor today and the outcome? She can’t help me. I just want to lie down, eat real Chinese food from the corners of the Bronx, and silently cry. I want to call mom and scream my troubles, but its 2:00am in New York. These are the things I hate. I guess at this point, I want to get on my flight and leave LA behind, so I won’t have to think about it anymore.

I want things to be okay.

With love,


*imsuchadoll*